As I wrote last week, I am leaving my job of eight years. Obviously, this is a major decision, one that I do not take in stride. Though it’s hard not to be elated about changing my life–to pursue happiness outside the confines of a nine-to-five job–there’s a piece of me that’s terrified about it too.
While I worry that I am already projecting too much about what this summer will involve, here are my current thoughts:
- I would love to see the following happen this summer: visit the library every week, ride bikes to nearby parks, make art, utilize our museum memberships, travel far and wide to see friends and family, visit farms and pick our own fruit, blow bubbles and color with chalk on the porch, cook and bake in the kitchen, swim at the local pool, and meet friends for playdates. I would say the likelihood of these things happening is around 100 percent, but it’s good to write down all of that I will be able to do once I have more time.
- I am thrilled to have a summer with my kids, but I am scared to have so much unstructured time with them, too. Time will be abundant, and I’ll have to figure out a way to fill it, each and every day. While I love that we can spend some extra time cuddling in our jammies in the morning, there are a lot of hours in the day to fill. I’ve got to find a good balance of home and out-of-home time, of quiet and not-so-quiet time.
- I am concerned that we won’t be able to live within our restricted budget. We’ve gotten pretty lazy with money around these parts. I hope it’s because we have lacked time and just throw money at things to solve immediate problems. My fingers are crossed that the newly acquired abundance of time will help us downsize the budget. I’m already plotting to organize the household spending and activities and plan to have some new methods in place before my last paycheck arrives.
Again, these are just the thoughts cluttering my head, and I realize I’ll be forced to figure out everything once I am home. But there are a few things I can start doing now, like looking at our budget, that might make the transition a little easier. Come May 10, though, I’ll be in the thick of it, for better or worse.